It’s a New Dawn

It’s the start of a new school year, but this isn’t just any school year this is my last year! I entered into a 2 year program and I’m actually going to finish it completely! This may not seem like much to most people but I graduated high school in 2009 and I have been all over the maps with my post secondary since 2010 bouncing from one thing to the next because they seemed like a great idea… first it was a fashion designer, then it was a speech pathologist, then it was a teacher, a dental hygienist… HR business personnel and finally I’ve committed and I’m completing a diploma to be a legal assistant. My health was a huge contributing factor for my prolonged post secondary experience but you live and you learn and you meet people along the way. 

I finished last year with a 3.8 GPA. I’m not saying this to boast but to point out that having bipolar with all of it’s ups and downs … switching medication… upping my doses of medication didn’t prevent me from succeeding. If you put your mind to it anything is possible, we are our only limit.

I’m excited and nervous for this year, there is a lot to learn and a lot of work ahead of me. I’m excited for my practicum and to experience working in a law firm (I’m pretty confident I’d like to go for law and become a lawyer … but slow and steady wins the race, I want one stable career under my belt first) 

I’m not going to lie I’m worried about entering the real life adult work force, sure I’m an adult but working summer jobs and having the luxury of calling in sick if I was really feeling like I couldn’t function is very different than a stable 9-5 Monday thru Friday. In the legal field there are deadlines and as the legal assistant to the lawyers I’m expected to meet them otherwise what is my value to the firm. I’ll face that hurdle when I get there. This year is preparatory for that, I’m working with my doctors and I’m trying to better myself and that’s all I can do.

I’m so proud to say I will be graduating this year, it’s been a long time coming. But if it takes you longer than most people, so be it. Never let go of a dream and goal just because you have to work differently than most people to achieve it. 

 I hope everyone has an exciting year and challenges themselves to dream big and work hard to make it happen. 
– Steph 

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The Right or wrong Answer

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Alright! I have some writing juices pumping through my brain, so I’m going to take advantage of the moment whilst I sit on an LRT riding back to my car.

Blog post time!
Woot! Woot!

So recently I’vej started back at school, it’s been incredibly exciting and slightly overwhelming  (in a good way) There has been an abundance of information thrown my way, so naturally I record all the tasks in my day planner, which allows me to keep my head on & my breathing even. I’ve created a key for my courses and additional course content that correlates, as well I’ve colour coded my courses…. yes, I’m that girl.

Small and simple efforts that ultimately make a difference in my life. I know what makes me tick and and I am getting better at knowing what turns me into a ticking time bomb. So I do everything in my power to avoid that situation. Day by day.

I’m fairly self critical. Anyone who knows me may suggest that “fairly” is an understatement BUT that’s how I’m going to express it. I strive to be better. To do better. To achieve better. This is the process necessary for me to become the best version of me. It obviously requires self reflection and assessment, however that being said I’m going to ask you to think about the following statement….

In order to do better you need to know what your doing wrong. You need to see the errors so you can correct them.

Do you consider this true or false? I’ve always considered it true. I’ve always looked for the flaws so that I could fix them. Reach my true potential. Be the best version of me….

BUT 

I was listening to someone speaking and they used an anology that hit me hard. It made me take a step back, asking myself if I was in fact becoming a better faster or if I was my own undoing hindering the process…

Here it goes: You took a test there were 100 questions. You got 90 out of 100 questions correct. Now the question is do you notice the 90 correct answers first or do you instantly notice the 10 incorrect?

Think about this, I can honestly say in this literal scenario I’ve always noticed the incorrect answers before I acknowledge or congratulate myself on the correct answers. Do you see how flawed that is?!? How can we hope to achieve our greatest potential if we don’t even remind ourselves of the greatness we’ve already achieved? How can we hope to be better if we don’t truly consider what we are building upon in regards to ourselves? We are incredible in our own right, and just think how much more incredible we could be if we acknowledged that before we gave credit to the flaws.

Yes we need to know what’s wrong in order to “fix it” but that does not give us the excuse to zero in on the negative before we see the positive.

Look for the good. Look for the progress. Magnify your strengths and talents and then consider where you might improve. Don’t see the 10 incorrect answers before you congratulate yourself on the 90 correct.

As I enter a new school year, in a new program this is my goal. This is the new fresh outlook I will be applying as I move forward. Don’t beat yourself up. When people get beat up they are often hurt to the point where they can’t move or act in their normal capacity. They can’t move as quickly. Figuratively don’t beat yourself up! Your only slowing down your progress and weakening your true potential.

May we be kinder to ourselves with tough love BUT real love.

– Steph