It’s Okay to Admit It


Here’s a post for kicks and giggles and also a little bit of a “you should know better”.

So on Sunday I didn’t take my meds to spite … everything and everyone that had anything to do with helping me be happy &  healthy. Clearly I was ticked, since that’s the stupidest thing I’ve ever heard!….Anyways, on Sunday night I had a huge anxiety attack/breakdown…meltdown… tomato tamato and because I refused to take my meds I was awake all night. It’s fair to say after it was all said and done I was physically and emotionally exhausted.

However, Monday rolled around and I was in a significantly better mood. Everything that was “falling apart” surprisingly wasn’t! Fancy that eh?
So my Monday rolled along and eventually it was time for me to go to work. (I was looking forward to work, I love the seniors that I work with, they have bring me so much joy!)

So off to I work I went, prior to starting my shift however I had to talk to my boss regarding my school schedule changing (I’m no longer going to be able to work my shifts). This simple discussion had me incredibly anxious BUT because my boss is amazing she was incredibly understanding. My shift began and all seemed well…. now…my theory about what transpired… is a combination of Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday and me already having had a huge anxiety attack.

One minute I’m talking and the next minute I’m on the verge of passing out. I kept fanning myself with my hand saying “wow, it’s really hot! I can’t seem to catch my breath… wow, yah,  no, I can’t breathe” thankfully one of the girls grabbed me before I fell … I was escorted to a chair where I had a lovely nurse run to me in a panic… by this point I literally couldn’t breathe so I was hyperventilating and as per usual when this happens I was apologizing in between trying to breathe (why I apologize, I have no idea… maybe it hs to do with me being an inconvenience haha)

My vitals were checked … I must say it was quite the spectacle. The real kicker is that I’ve been working at this seniors home for MONTHS and my last week or work BOOM this happens! It was all quite funny, I had to be wheeled away in a wheel chair so my parents could pick me up; my dad had to basically carry me to the car because every time I tried to stand I’d start hyperventilating and my body would start to shake… like I said I think it was over exhaustion, basically my body was shutting down; refusing to work.

So home again home again! I took my medication and then I slept. And Voila! I was back on my feet the next morning. And when I came into work I was greeted by my loving residents who made me smile just as they always do. (They all sweetly expressed how worried they were and how happy they were to see me smiling and laughing)

Don’t be stupid like me! Don’t  skip your meds JUST to prove a stupid point. Ultimately your hurting yourself more than anyone else…. let this be a lesson.

In this situation all I can do is laugh and shake my head. I could be super embarrassed about it BUT hey?! Where is that going to get me? It’ll get me no where fast. There’s a lot worse things that could have happened. And I don’t need any frown wrinkle lines!

– Steph

Who Do You Trust?


Here’s a bit of humor for your mid-week Wednesday.

This meme was sent to me from my sister, it made me laugh pretty good. It reminded me of a story which begins… once upon a time my mom was describing my body type to my sister and I and she said,

“Stephanie you have a Jay Leno butt ”

And then my sister and I were like,

“A what?!!?”

And them my mom started laughing and clarified,

“I meant to say a JLo butt NOT Jay Leno!”

We all had a pretty good laugh. And I was grateful my mom didn’t think I had a Jay Leno rear.

And hey, if this meme holds true, it definitely indicates I don’t lie, trust me.

Happy Wednesday.

– Steph

Here’s a Little Dose of Laughter


So this post is a bit nonsensical… I honestly just wanted to post it so you could develop 6 second abs from laughing whilst excericing that beautiful smile.

I don’t know why, but I seriously bust a gut every time I  see this picture… it never gets old! That caption … now that’s called perfection!

I hope everyone has a wonderful Tuesday, getting in their dose of laughter.

– Steph

Itsy Bitsy Spider


This picture made me laugh pretty good. And what’s even crazier is a young man apparently did burn down his house (unintentionally) trying to kill a spider. No joke… even though the above meme is a joke… ohhh the irony.

Ahywho, I don’t know what it is this summer but I feel like everywhere I turn there are webs and monstrous spiders lurking …. okay most of them are as big as a dime BUT still they look lethal.

I am by NO MEANS a bug person, my least favorite critters happen to be spiders and death in it’s flying form… a.k.a moths… oh boy…they make my heart stop for a brief moment. Moths are actually worse than spiders in my books… the way they just fly into people’s faces …. ahhh just the thought give me the willies!

This year I feel like there is an abundance of these mini armies… and I fear for my life … okay maybe not that much but I could definitely live without them.

Here’s to hoping that  where ever you are, spiders and moths are not… I’d hate to hear of another house being burnt down.

– Steph

Run to the Rainbow! And EAT IT!


Today was a day unlike any other. I tasted the rainbow AND just like the picture above it did not taste like skittles!

Okay, in all seriousness I did taste an array of colours today – unintentionally. I am proud of myself for finally checking off a box on my “to-do list”! For years I’ve wanted to participate in some sort of fun run (yes… my foot injury was a deterrent), I’d always see pictures of people at fun events and would think “ooooo that looks so fun I should go”… did I ever go? No. BUT this year was going to be different! This year I REFUSED to sit back and watch opportunities of building fun meaningful memories pass me by. I signed up for a 5 km run, with every intention to walk/jog so I could handle my foot injury –  I had compromise, there was absolutely no reason for me not to go just because I wasn’t going to run the whole race.

I had two darling companions come with me, my younger sister V and my cousin D. We were in the 9 o’clock heat, so we had a nice early morning. We arrived wearing white and left looking like a rainbow had thrown up on us… okay maybe that’s  a gross analogy… we looked like we had people throw buckets of paint and coloured powder on us as we ran by them …. wait a minute! That’s exactly what happened! And then we danced to some fun blood pumping music as we ate free food and drank free water… boy! do I love free!

Participating in this race was so fun, and I’m so glad I finally went for something out of the norm. I am really trying to grab life by the reigns and live it by being actively engaged. If I spend money to enter a fun filled day activity, so be it. It’s money well spent in my opinion, AND how often to we waste money on things we can’t even remember?? THESE ARE SOLID MEMORIES PEOPLE!

Try something out of your regular, enjoy the sun, enjoy paint being splattered across your face that you accidently eat because your mouth is open as your smiling haha….

I hope your day was as fun as mine, in all honesty I really needed today. This week has been pretty ruff going and todays event was a nice little shock of happiness. Give yourself a shock, taste the rainbow!

– Steph

Say What??!

face talk

So here is a quick post to lighten the mood, my previous posts essays were pretty DANGGGGG long. But I just wanted to get them out there to give some background on me and the road to my proper diagnosis.

In all seriousness. I TALK. A LOT. Its a curse gift, and YES, you guessed it…. I’m on another level where breathing is unnecessary. Who needs to breathe?? I do enjoy listening to people talk BUT I also enjoy talking and when I’m telling a story… if you cut me off…. this picture = me perfectly, it’s practically a spitting image. Telling a story and keeping it short ONE OF MY GREATEST CHALLANGES OF LIFE! But I’m working on it 🙂

Hope you had a good laugh… good ol’ grumpy cat can always brings a smile to my face.

– Steph